that’s how many i feel are running through my brain right now, at the speed of light, neurotransmitters fluctuating, seratonin and dopamine falling. my heart slowly squeezing itself until it feels hollow. i’m partly to blame for feeling like this — i never push for what i want, i’m not selfish enough to say outright this is [...]
Oh my poor feet. After spending the whole day out in this miserable weather, I’m exhausted. This is where the private masseur is supposed to step in and relieve all the sore muscles. Oh I wish! Going to watch Transformers tomorrow [finally]. This should be interesting, considering the crowd that’s going. I’m a bit peeved, especially [...]
What should I do? This question applies to 2 situation. 1. I decided to buy a poster of Charles and Ray Eames on a motorcycle because I couldn’t find a good enough picture on the net/in a book. I ordered this around mid November. I wait and wait and wait, no poster. E-mailed the company, [...]
The chase has ended with one of us giving up, although I’m not sure if it was me or him first. Getting a three line email, after writing one first, just is not a good sign. Especially when it says he’s busy and that he’ll be busy for another 3 weeks, and that he didn’t [...]
More writing, wow, two entries in one day [well sort of]. Stuff on my mind. So I’ve been seeing this guy, Pencil Guy. We’re similar and yet complete opposites when it comes to certain things. And although it shouldn’t matter that much, it ends up doing so...he’s white. Funny how when I was in HS, I [...]
Sometimes I don’t understand why I have these stupid desires for the conventions that society imposes on us. It’s not an inherently biological trait to desire monogamy. For obvious reasons, the best way to propogate is to have multiple mates, ensuring genetic dissemination, mutiple offspring, etc., etc. So when did humans first come up with [...]
The worst thing to do is expect anything from anyone — that way you can never be disappointed if he turns out to be something he isn’t.
Current thought: Doesn’t seem like anyone is around this Saturday night. My buddy list is practically devoid of people. How sad. The other day I was talking to a friend about dating and stuff, and I mentioned my two cardinal rules of dating: 1) don’t date ex’s friends, and 2) don’t recycle boyfriends. I haven’t come [...]
I don’t get it. I just simply don’t get it. He says these wonderful things [and I actually believe him], but then he’s staying with someone who argues with him all of the time, whom he’s also declared will drive him crazy. And he knows how I feel too, so there’s no ambiguity there. There [...]
A creditcard bill is not a girl’s best friend. I had this silly idea that it wouldn’t be as much as it is...My new computer was the biggest dent though. I think it just hit me really hard a little while ago that I won’t be talking to Valen again for a very long time, [...]