First thought that popped into my head as I started writing this entry is there’s an irony to my topic of how feelings on the internet are so open for everyone to see. It’s mostly because of the crazy emotional rollercoaster that my hormones, neurochemistry, and thoughts have put me through in the last few days.
In my strange emotional state, it almost feels better to just blab out how I feel to the vast internet where anyone [unless I mark this as a private posting] can read it, instead of sitting with a friend and asking him/her to be my therapist for the hour. I don’t know exactly what it is that stops me from telling a friend — feelings of shame, fear of being judged, or just not having the person understand.
So maybe right now I just want to blab, to just dump all of the feelings of frustration, and hurt, and sadness and craziness on to a server, hit publish, and to have everyone read this. Somehow it makes me feel better that someone could read this.
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